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Mental Disintegration

by Solar Death

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1.
January 03:52
I wish it was over i cant get it over I couldnt believe the way you could feel This past January,was so hard to carry Wrapped around chains its so surreal Do You believe it is time i want to run away from this Do you know how the world collapses and falls into bliss I hear everything blurry Cause when youre around your scary But here comes January So you better be perished You stare at the TV i stare at the ceiling Wondering why the clouds are so gray Digging up graveyards Noise in the boulevard Look Its the Devil dressed as a Saint
2.
I aint gonna sleep tonight until i know what i want And i aint gonna sleep tonight cause my mind will start to haunt Do you hear the screams of your heart That breaks and tears apart Your mind that tells you its the way to live your life You spend your days counting time Thats flying out the window And you have the guts to tell that its the way to live your life Life is losing its purpose Theres nothing to think but wasted opportunities Is there something wrong with the way that i close my eyes at night You're like a knight without a sword The horse that you rode boy Is too tired to carry your waist How long have you seen the light? Dont give yourself a fight boy Theres plenty more years you can waste Wasting my money With no satisfaction or any type of pride Now my room is filled with things that can fullfill me or atleast thats what i thought
3.
in the outer space he sinks skull is freezing and it seems mirror mirror on the moon swallow stars as it should i remember all your eyes poison ivy butterflies in my stomach as i think how the sun dissapears all the stars are flaming tears hope that someday youll appear in my arms safe and clear let us travel far away my imaginary friend take your face off the blues let us fly to the moon lately youve been in a void why you looking so annoyed did a comet look your way feels like yesterday i cant wait until we fade let me take off your suit let the space consume you if this is the end i will fall on my face my heart had enough my heart had enough if your destination is my destination its never enough oh its never enough looking for life in the eyes of god but its never enough oh its never the loneliest man in space has come but its just enough oh its just enough even if we die out here youre still the sun who shines on me space is our pallace and youre not a fantasy Dont let me die alone Im sinking like a stone This isnt the end no. Dont let the space consume us I wanna wrap around you closely The sun is eating me up Watching you die so slowly Floating around with your suit on my hands Holding it closely while the air slowly runs Last sight of your body as my eyesight goes dim Was all this fate or was this only a dream?
4.
I saw my fish die today It was laying upside down while the other stared With no emotion or any sympathy But they were just goldfish I didnt know why i cared So i grabbed my spoon and left it out in the yard So the ants could have something after they worked hard The question was whether it died of age Or hunger or was just overfeeding it I saw my fish die today i saw my fish die today I went back to see my remaining fish It was swimming all alone unaware of the sitch I just gave it food and it just started to eat With no shame or any sign of defeat So i went to the yard just the other day And my fish finally met his ultimate fate No skin and the eyes were hollow and deep And pondered whether life was just the way to be
5.
Graffiti 03:42
[Verse] Third Person View out of the balcony As sure the night is cold as it has ever been The Mind has become my enemy Reminding all the things i could have seen [Chorus] Graffiti on the wall Hope you are coming home Graffiti on the wall Hope you are coming home Id rather be reborn So i can write some more To write some more Each passing day,i come by at the wall I see my soul inside the harmony i hear the voices from the thrown out doll Another late thrown out memory Here it goes my head again Here it goes my brain again I just cant go to bed again Losing in the void again Losing sanity again Down by the building oh so grey (What a great time to fade away) hooray
6.
For Eternity 05:32
For eternity im living on my own For eternity im gripping on my phone For eternity blood pumping out Is it ever fair to feel yourself blackout It feels like i wasted my time Cause time has passed way too fast The isolation makes you feel like a mime That has shut its mouth and you think whether your existence will come to last I carry the past on my shoulders I dont mind having my back filled with boulders Im wasting my youth and thats the tragic truth I havent left the house in months So i left my home and layed down the grass road Watching all the butterflies and moths Another phase another beginning I cannot understand This whole time have i been daydreaming Of a better future in my life inside my head thats drawn in sand I cannot stand this indecision I am Married with the lack of vision Now my youth is all gone thats why i write this song Im Running out of words For a lifetime im locked in my head full of wrong Its as if i am stabbed by swords The sun is slowly decaying my eyes And i dont know what to do
7.
Paper 04:27
[Verse 1] Everytime im walking down the road i hold your notebook paper with your number on it Gave it to me crying you went flying hoped to see me later oh how ironic Called me by the phone when im looking at the rainy weather im claustrophobic Once i hear your insecurities I made myself a goal to deny your every call forever cause youre haunting Havent even thought a single second i would change forever and i bleed with grief [Spoken Word] And so the rumors seemed to have been true A person's body was found outside your house But what could i do I only could stare at the TV for hours and hours Infact it seemed like no one i knew was hurt in that incident The strange part was that a specific phone number was left on the person's chest at first i didnt recognise but i shrugged and decided to go for a nightwalk Its was a dark and snowy day As i walked through the soft soil I noticed i had a paper in my jacket I couldnt remember how i got it but i opened it just of curiosity and inside that paper i found your number and realised it was you [Chorus] Hold your breath now Afterlife Im not your hotline anymore Im not the person you should have called
8.
Tryhard 03:36
Even though i try hard Isnt it enough to leave you alone Call it by a landslide But why youre talking bout me with that low tone I dont know what you want from me Parasyte in my head that wont leave And it seems With every second i run too quick my hands blow steam and all this time i havent been too deep To be sure are you in with me Cause sometimes its seems hell to be You just need to understand that youre nobody without me Youre beating yourself when youre beating me I dont know where the hell i am And you think it is time make me feel so numb You make a fool of what i am on every call But you just sit back and hide behind my wall You may have no consequence at all You were fed with the past hollow memories
9.
Insane 04:31
I see the fountain of tears that you have made Thats building up for like a year or two And afterwards you dont know what to do Accept the life that you have made now With every moment youre dreaming of fade out With the beginning of distractions comes distractions Running faster than the speed of sound In your dreams where you cant be found It looks like havent made your parents proud In a long time Hey Get up you stupid bastard You know what youre doing Break your headphones apart Burning down like a pile of trees In the summer month pouring gasoline yeah You havent seen yourself quite throught Im in constant pain just like you is it love for pain or lack of brain all i know is that im going insane Light a match and see where it takes you it isnt hell but it is quite close All you ever knew in life was just false Get your guitar and start fucking around Your creativity may come some day All you do is for yourself its way too late I guess its time to slow down for a while There is a phone for you to dial But all you ever really feel is pure denial And so you Throw the phone out of the only closest window So you started to blow the engine of your old Tiida and you started to drive without sense of control But you were reaching limit and your car drove off a summit You tried to press the brakes but your luck was way too fake As youre coming close to ground you hear such a lovely sound Thats the sound of your demise
10.
I feel lost.empty and filled with voids And all this is caused by never ending noise Cause i just cant figure out whether my problems Are too superstitious to feel remorse My blood pressure is constantly rising And when my brain finally explodes to bits It will be the last time my innosence sees the light of day And thats the time i realise its way too late and i cant help But Mentally disintegrate in times of daylight As the emptiness absorbs my flesh And when time is moving faster and faster than eyesight It slowly makes you feel like you want to fall into a deep and endless cliff All those movies that ive watched And All these songs that i tried to write It was all a waste of time Its not like i was connected to them in any shape or form I walk to the beachside every night To watch the moon that shines so bright The waves that break into the rocks But empty feelings never stop He didnt mean to make you cry With sparks that ring and bullets fly On empty rings around your heart The world just screams and falls apart Why do i have to Why do i have to? Why do i have to call my friends because They havent called me. They havent call me They havent called me for the past 3 months oh no Two headed boy There is no reason to grieve The world that you see is a figment reality That you have created in your dumb mind And i cant help But Mentally disintegrate in times of daylight As the emptiness absorbs my flesh And when time is moving faster than eyesight It slowly makes you feel like you want to fall into a deep and endless cliff

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released July 25, 2020

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Solar Death Limassol, Cyprus

Indie Rock and Post Punk artist combining elements of dreams, existentialism, apocalypse, nostalgia and bittersweet darkness.

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